"Our God is a god of second chances, of infinite mercy and love."
Many times, I have come before the Lord in weakness and sin. Many times, I have come before Him, wounded and wrought with feelings of unworthiness and shame. But I come before Him all the more, because I want to be with Him, to listen and hear what He has to say, because I know that He loves me for who I am--a child, not knowing any better, a hardhead, who would rather do things my way instead of heeding the Father.
I know I am unworthy, oh Lord. I know that despite me, despite all my efforts, I can give you more. I know that I can still allow you ever more openly into my heart. Allow me to trust in you, in your love, and in your grace, Father.
Many times, I forget that you love me. I forget that you are a Father that is so much more than I often think of. I have underestimated you, Lord, and this has lead me to sin and ignorance of you.
Knowing that I am loved gives me strength. That despite all my sin, you still continue to be here, with me. It makes my eyes well up with tears whenever I think of all the times I have failed to recognize you and what you have planned for me. I am like Moses' Israelites, who continue to insist you stay with me, not knowing fully your reasons for choosing to do so. I am humbled, Lord, because of your persistence and desire to know me, to search me, and to reveal more of your self to me.
Thank you, Father, for the wellspring of kindness and love that you continue to offer freely. Thank you for loving me deeply, a love that purifies and humbles me. Thank you, Lord, for showing me what your love can do.
